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The beginning..

14th July, that was it.. 4 yrs down the lane! I could never forget,4th of July, we went to Sadus sisters wedding..everything was fine, no pain, no illness!!! we met lots of people.. people who to date can't believe u r gone!

It was 5 am in the morning, just fajr!! when it shot up! the pain, that is.. from that day on it continued till 14 days! I can never forget! today as i woke up, i was reliving each of those moments, the fajr, the emergency ward, then the ICU.. i remember what clothes u wore, heck, i remember myself clad in the pink suit which we designed ourselves. it was the first day in my life when someone from my family was admitted in the hospital in front of my eyes! It was the first time i felt what millions of people sitting outside the gates of the ICU feel. And maybe it was the first time I realised I can't bear to part with you! I thought you'll be there forever.. I thought life doesnt stop in this world.

Today is also the eve of 22nd Rajab.. the day we shifted in our new house.. aah, the memories.. our kittens.. our tree.. our bageecha!! its all so meaningless without u.. even today when i am back home in khi, when i sit outside in the lawn, a cup of tea in my hand! i miss the lady who sat with me, who never let me be alone at any point of my life!! even today I feel you , your duas, n ur eye on me..
(A humble request to all readers for prayers and al Fatiha)
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meow said…
K, your posts are so sad. I'm so sorry for your loss.
Wed Jul 15, 09:53:00 AM
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