Sugar n spice & all that's nice!!

Its one of those warm summer nights, when you are feeling cold and shiverrish in the AC. One of those nights when everything around you seems calm and stable, but the storm that's cooking up inside you is killing you. One of those lonely nights you wish there was someone around to share a cup of hot tea in that storm of emotions, a shoulder to cry upon, a teddy bear of a hug to make you warm and fuzzy, those nights you wish you just had a book that could transport you into another world, a world of no worries, no tensions, no dreams, no desires, no hopes, and no wishes.. Just another world... God has made a lot of galaxies, lots of planets, Earth is just one of them, and I am just a nobody living n the huge Earth!!! Somewhere around I wonder there must be another Earth, where there would be another lost soul, who might or might not be equally worried as me... maybe that another world would be guilt free, worry free, anxiety free... sometimes this anxiety of mine takes my appetit...

Its 2 a.m. She can not sleep. Sleep is a term for peace, probably... Far from peace, how can there be sleep... Someone is sick, someone is far, someone is veryyy far... She misses the 4 yr old, who said, "Dont be sad, be happy" the apple of her eye... If only it was so easy, he taught her, being thankful is the key... She thanks Allah for whatever is in store, but she can't sleep. Listening to the chugging sounds of the fan, the tick tock tick of the clock, scampering of a cockroach, the sound of some car coming in late, the squealing cats, the birds(afterall the early birds catch the worm) and finally the cockadoodle doos.. Such a short night, yet so long. Sometimes all she wants is to close her eyes, and dream... Of nothing... Just nothing, no thoughts, nothing... :( Lord, grant me peace!!! Shower your mercy on the sick, give them good health, ameen!!!!

Ajeeb baat hai, mein ne socha tha, aaj I will be happy..I will cook some nice dishes, recite a dua for you, n be smiling..I could move through the day like this, but when the sun sets, somewhere in my heart a darkness assembles, and I realize not a year would go by when I wont shed a tear on ur birthday!! I so miss you, I couldn't thank you even, for making me a wonderful person (at heart) yess, even if I say so myself.. I know it deep down, no matter how much arrogant ppl can think Ariens are, how bossy, n mebbe selfish.. but you instilled great values in me.. and I pray I can instill the same amazing values in chitto bitto!! :D For that every night you put me to sleep, I can never thank you, ever!! For that every morning you came in my dreams, to give me a moral support that I needed much more than anything, I can not utter a thanks... For every thing you did for me, I appreciate it a lot, but my only regret is I can't talk to you.. Life is so unbelievable, so sho...

Lakh duniya kahe tum nahi ho, tum yaheen ho... Haan, tum yaheen ho... 2 din... Aur sirf aik aap, aik apki ankhein, bass sirf yehi hain mere samnay... Chahoon bhi toh mera dil, dimagh kuch aur nahi kerne de raha... Mri nazron mein sirf aapka chehra aa raha hai, mujhe nahi maloom kyun, 8 saalon mein itni shiddat se aap labhi yaad nahee aye, per in do dino se apko aik lamhe ke liyeh mein nahee chorr pa rahee... Bass nahi chal raha, kahan se dhoondh laoon... Aik aik ker ki poori zindagi ankhon ke samany aa gayee.. Bchpan, larakpan, jawani... Mein ne burhapa bhi aapke sath soch liya tha... Maa, kuch unfair hay yeh... Ya nahi? Yaad aata hai apka yeh kehna ki maut pehle aa jaye, per mohtaji nahi, auR mera jawaban yeh kehna, nahii, pehle me phir aap... Aur apka yeh kehna, pagal, kabhi bachay pehle martay hain kya!!!! Ar phir ankh dikhana... Mummy, mujhe hospital yaad aata hai, emergency room mein hum dono, woh oxygen mask, jo apko bilkul pasand nahi aa raha tha, baar baar usay nikal rahay t...

Ohh Emm Gee!! I cant blv it, such a nice deserter I'm becoming!! haha!! Just made Umm Ali, the Egyptian dessert!! Zarnak apis recipe... it turned out awesome!!serving it to ppl who've lived in Dubai most of their life and getting complimented in the true sense for it is a huge accomplishment for me! sumtimes I just love myself.. mashaAllah!!! Zarnak apis recipe minus the kishmish, cream and coconut!!! absolutely yum!!!!      

Ice-cream!!!! Who doesn't like it... I loved ice-cream when I was really skinny malnutritioned kind of kid... Hehehe.. There was no fear of getting fat, and mum would get me one ice-cream cone daily just because I was me.. But now eating ice-cream is a task, killing off those calories, whew... I am feeling so guilty right now, i just ate a huge chocolate bar... :( i wish writing also burned calories.. Hahah then i would be a novelist for sure... Munchkin has made me the worlds best ice-cream.. He asked me which one mummy? And i wanted to test his colors, so i said orange n strawberry... Wheww... I hav never eaten an orange ice-cream before... Only the ice-lolly with my bro.... And this junior chef brings me the worlds best no calorie, no sugar ice-cream, i love you hunnybunch!!!!!

Winter or so it is couldn't have been more busier!!! but heres the promised pic!! so yummyyy that I am cravin git right now!       yum yum slurp.. I dint know before but theres this huge passion inside me that wants to make new things everyday!!!! :D I love it when my family loves what I cook, and I love it even more when they honestly tell me if somethings missing in it! ;)   Chef Gulzars recipe, a success! my guests loved it, my peeps liked it, and I fell in love with meetha once again! With some touch ups of my own, too lazy to type!! honestly speaking I love chef gulzars way of cooking, the only thing I dislike is what he does in the middle of cooking, grooving to some Punjabi number!!!! no comment see for yourself... we don't gel the same way while cooking!!! :P at all!!